Daily Prompt: Can’t Stand Me
See no evil. Nothing is as it seems. Appearance means a great deal and experience tells me why. My voice has always deceived everyone as it is bearable and friendly.
If only my voice and appearance would go hand in hand. A charming, soothing and disarming soundtrack accompanied by a standoffish and unconcerned cover.
If I were an actor then I would need countless takes to match my voice and appearance. The visual is quite difficult for me. The audio has been mastered.
Recently I’ve noticed that I never really allowed myself to breath and relax comfortably. At each weekly exercise that I manage to make, I manage to reconnect with myself. It is the only time that I truly see what others see, because they feel obligated to tell me. Otherwise my opinion is self-deflated.
I prefer to hide. If the attention were somehow sent my way, I’d find a way to deflect it. I love anonymity. A video would seal who I am. It would only highlight what I need to change.
Until I fully connect with myself and rediscover my purpose in this world, I’d much rather not see myself. The journey is slow but I am determined to attempt it by firstly identifying why I am the way that I am.